It’s been 5 years. The thing is this; you can grieve, work through the grief to a place of acceptance, continue living. In doing all those things, you don’t forget. You still get emotional. Every year I think that I’ve got it under control. By “it” I mean my emotions. I think to myself, “This year I’m not going to cry.” Each year I cry. My daughter asked me about my special Father’s Day memories with my dad. I couldn’t remember any. I have several heart felt memories, however I couldn’t remember a single one from Father’s Day. Maybe that’s why this day is emotional. I don’t have any more Father’s Days to make up for the ones that I didn’t appreciate as a kid.
I know all of the positive twists. I’m going to stop feeling sorry for myself in a minute. I just needed to be real about dealing with today.