I want to take a moment from looking back, to say, yesterday was a happy and sad day.  It was my birthday.  I love birthdays.  It’s that one day out of the year that’s just yours, or in this case mine 🙂   This year, with the loss of Colby just months ago, I found myself really missing everyone.  Out of our family of 5, it’s just Mom and I left.

I still find myself almost picking up the phone to share a joke or story or talk about the day, and then I remember I can’t.

I’m not really sure how I’ve dealt with all that’s happened.  Mainly by trying to move forward a little each day.  I’ve had my nights of sweet tea vodka and lemonade with lots of tears and old songs.  Being sad, dwelling on that, it isn’t something I can do.  I have those moments, and then “get right back on the horse” which is life and keep going.  I suppose it’s part of the grieving process.

That sad place though isn’t somewhere I wish to be often.

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